Today We Meet

So today I am going to meet Erika. Erika is one of Sean’s friends. This will be my first experience since the suicide spending time with someone that is on his side. This is a big deal for me and brings up a bunch of emotions good and bad. Erika was looking to blame me at first. All of Sean’s friends and family did. I could have said mean things like they did to me but I knew that Sean wanted better for me and better for...

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Let Me Get Something Straight…

As I sit here in the cafe I call my ‘office’ it takes so much not to break down and cry or scream at the world. So, let me get something straight to those that think you know best…. (Starting Rant) I do not fully understand the world around me I fear getting hurt I don’t know what is best for me I am who I am Guess what? SAME GOES FOR YOU!!!! Every day right now is a battle for me. Why? I experienced...

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My Blog Before “The Blog”

I talked to Sean’s mom last night for the first time in months through chat. Last night I had some really weird dreams about Sean and I kept waking up throughout the night. I started having really vivid and weird dreams a few weeks ago. They actually started with my dog Kiara.  In my dreams my mom found her. When I woke up, I really thought for a few minutes that it was true. Reality set in and I knew it wasn’t the case....

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Expressions of Grey

I went to open mic night for the second time. It is on Thursday nights at the Wild Rabbit. Last week I met a lady Janet that reads poems. I was excited to see her this week because I didn’t get to hear her last week. A poem she read was about being lonely called “Expressions of Grey”. It really struck home with me. When she talked about the poem, I could see the emotions. I know it is something we can all relate to....

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We Are Glass

I am telling you, kids have it figured out when it comes to living life. It is to find what makes you happy and do more of it. In doing that, you don’t have to win the jackpot to happiness every time. You do however have to keep trying. Sometimes in looking for happiness the opposite happens, you get hurt. At the time, we don’t understand but as long as you keep going, those struggles help you end up exactly where you...

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