So last night I came up with a plan and decided I wanted to go backpack Southeast Asia. It started because I was looking for a place that Matt and I could go for our next trip. When I realized how affordable it is and how easy it is to get around. There is an amazing amount to do and no way could we do it all in a few weeks. So I decided…. I wanted to take on that part of the world alone because that is my only choice if I want to see it. Matt is constantly telling me that now is my time. He had his days of screwing around and screwing up and he is perfectly content working while I relax a little and do things for myself. We have been here in Japan for 3 months and I could hardly stand it. I could hardly stand myself. It isn’t like I can walk down the street and get a job. So I have brainstormed ideas of ways to work. Start my own business. Teach at the University. Substitute for the school district. Find a job to telecommute. Whatever it is I didn’t want to give up our freedom to go when Matt has a break because it is the whole reason we chose Japan vs a life in the US. So I have started working on my business. I put in an application at the University. I can’t substitute teach till August. I have even applied to jobs in the US to telecommute. None of these are happening tomorrow.
This is the craziest trip I have done. I went to Europe few years back but I had 10 days before I left and I was only gone a few weeks, not months. What I realize is I am an adventure seeker. I long to connect to this world and the people in it. I can’t spend money easy and if it isn’t on sale, I am probably not buying it. Why? Because I always think of that money in terms of what I am giving up seeing in the world by spending that money. When it comes to travel, that is my guilty pleasure. My addiction. I plan on trying to keep track of expenses for myself to be accountable AND so that if anyone else goes on a similar journey they can take my information and use however they wish. To start my ticket was $173 on Scoot Airlines. Yeah never heard of them either but they were 1/2 of what other airlines were (look for a review soon). I fly from Tokyo to Singapore. Today I went out and bought a backpack. The one you see in the photo. Of course I got it from a second hand store and it looks brand new. Normal price is $145, I got it for $40. I did break down and buy shoes but no sale but knowing that walking with a huge pack on my back shoes were a big deal. I bought Keen Koven Hiking shoes for $75 and Sketcher Reggaes sandals for $30 The only 2 pair of shoes I am taking.
“Adventure is a path. Real adventure – self-determined, self-motivated, often risky – forces you to have firsthand encounters with the world. The world the way it is, not the way you imagine it. Your body will collide with the earth and you will bear witness. In this way you will be compelled to grapple with the limitless kindness and bottomless cruelty of humankind – and perhaps realize that you yourself are capable of both. This will change you. Nothing will ever again be black-and-white.” – Mark Jenkins
I fully expect to get hurt. I plan to learn a thing or 10,000 about the world. I expect highs and lows. I was telling a friend today that I hope encounter hardship such as getting lost, or a bus breaking down, and being uncomfortable without ac. Those moments remind me life is real. It makes the good times so much better. So I know there will be smiles and maybe even tears.
I couldn’t be more scared but excited for the adventure ahead. I have Matt to thank for that. I am not one to publicly be lovey but Dear Matt, Thank you for supporting me and my dreams and never trying to hold me back from where I want to go or what I want to do. I will leave a part of my heart at home with you but no matter where I am in the world, always know, YOU ARE LOVED.