Counting on You

My day started off by meeting Nat at a coffee shop. He has a very interesting story. He only had a few hours before he took off for travels of his own in Taiwan. He did take the time before he left to show me around the city a bit and we got to talk as we walked around. A stranger taking time out of there day to give me a tour is very gracious.  

I met up with Smitty after he got off work and we went over to his friend Jessica’s apartment where we ate and watched a British movie called The Trip. We talked about fun things and Jessica made us Irish Coffee (which was my first time) and it was so good and I don’t even like coffee. Then we headed back to Smitty’s making all kinds of ruckus on the way. It included being known by most of the people in the bar, dancing, yelling, and a deep talk with a taxi driver as I ranted about life. It was nothing short of ridiculous. Did I mention how much fun I am having?!

Obviously that isn’t as the title suggests, so here goes:

A lot of people say they are envious of the life I am living. I am living my dream. Anyone can live their dreams WHATEVER they may be. You have to stop with the excuses and take action. You will fall and things won’t always go the way you want but that is just the way it is.

Certain people don’t get me and I don’t expect them to. People think I am a failure because I am not working full time job with benefits when I am fully capable .I just don’t accept a life of limitation. My life isn’t for everyone but I have never been one to conform. This is no exception.

If you read in the about me section of my blog you will see that I feel like I sometimes disappoint people that care about me because I don’t meet their expectations. By trying to fulfill others you overlook your value and dreams.  I value other’s opinions but I wont let their views limit me pursuing my passions. Sometimes the challenge is learning that you don’t have to be what people expect you to be.I encourage everyone to live life for YOUR dreams.

I have messed up a lot in life. From each of those moments I have grown. What we experience in life creates our perception of what this world is about. You are never too old to chase your dreams and to create the life you want. 

I am going to be real with you about a struggle I am facing. I am owed around $10K that since I left Texas that person has decided not to pay me. They probably made that decision because it is hard for me to take them to court now. A huge curve ball thrown my way but it isn’t going to stop me. I am going to figure it out. I expect obstacles and set backs. It is about taking the bad with the good.

I only hope that person find happiness in the money. It isn’t ok that they are taking advantage of the situation but the reality is that they are.  I can fight it or accept it. Money (or lack of money) doesn’t intimidate me. It does add a small roadblock in my journey but who doesn’t like a good detour?

So many times we want only good in life but life without contrast would be boring. If we knew how life was going to be and if we didn’t have curve balls and challenges the good wouldn’t be so good.

“Every day, think as you wake up, today I am fortunate to be alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others; to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings. I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others. I am going to benefit others as much as I can.” -Dalai Lama

There is a song that comes to mind that I want to share because even though I write this blog to inspire others, I count on others to get me through. I want to show my struggles and my growth. I want people to know that even in chasing my dreams I struggle but it is a part of the journey. I am living life chasing my dreams and madly in love with the life I life embracing the challenges I encounter knowing that I can count on my friends and family. I may not have a big check book but I am rich in life and love which is more that can be said for most.

Faith When I Fall – Kip Moore

I know the rain is coming and it’s sure gonna pour
I know there ain’t no running from this kind of storm
It’s gonna get harder and harder, they keep on pushing through
I’m gonna wanna quit, so I’ll be counting on you

To give me love when I ain’t got nobody
A little hope when I ain’t got none at all
Give me light up ahead on a journey
Give me strength when I’m standing
And faith when I fall


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