I Did a Thing…
Jul14

I Did a Thing…

I am hitting the road again. Anyone that knows me, this isn’t a surprise. This time it isn’t in a Jeep, or a plane but a toy hauler. I bought the truck and trailer already. I really do feel like I am redefining the American Dream. I tried the whole buy a house again and settle down and it just isn’t where my heart is. For me, less (material things) is more and I love to connect with nature and people. In doing my...

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I Don’t Think About You
Jun22

I Don’t Think About You

After Sean’s suicide, I was emotionally wrecked. I hit the road with Roxy and my jeep to clear my head. To figure out life.  It was liberating and healing.Then I met Matt. This guy standing in front of me had gone and lived overseas for 2 years after his divorce to sort through life. I was in awe. I felt inspired. But I ran. He invited me for waffles. No thanks, Taco Bell and a night in my car instead. Curious… There are...

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Old World, New Home
Jul08

Old World, New Home

I am sitting here writing from one of my most beloved places the last 5 1/2 years, the airport. I love the fact that at the airport you are either going somewhere exciting or almost “home” and a place of so many emotions. Today I am closing out the “living overseas” chapter of my life and “going home”. So many mixed emotions. Matty and I are relocating back to Texas to settle down for a bit....

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Life in Chaos
May02

Life in Chaos

Some would say I am a Type A personality: organized, structured, on top of things. Yet somehow I live in the complete opposite in the untamed, wild, and unknown. What I will refer to as ‘chaos’. I returned to my temporary home Monday after being gone 5 weeks. Only to compose an abstract for a panel I am a part of for my academics. I also had to organize and plan missing parts for my upcoming trip. I had to unpack my life...

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Week 3 on the Camino
Apr16

Week 3 on the Camino

Day 15: The weather today was great so we knew we needed to take advantage of it and cover some distance. We stopped by an outdoor bar that Eric told us about because he stopped the day before. The bar owner was friendly and gave us watermelon which was delish. The walk was uneventful but I did start a new book called Rejection Proof. I thought it was appropriate learning the recent disappointment of getting the full time job. Very...

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6 Years, Grief After Suicide
Apr13

6 Years, Grief After Suicide

Today I celebrate life. It is a choice I make every year on April 13th. This is the first time since Sean’s suicide that the 13th has fallen on a Friday, like it did in 2012 when he took his life. I also write this blog to reflect on my journey. After it happened, I wanted to run and hide. I did in a sense when I lived in my jeep for months. I couldn’t shake the shame and guilt. I also felt ashamed that Sean had given me a...

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