I found this quote the other day and I really feel like it is true for me right now:
I say that because I could jump into a relationship easily but it is a choice I make to be single. I still feel like I have so much to learn about myself. Life has changed for me in so many ways.
One thing I realize is that we don’t know how significant a moment of our life is when it is happening. It is like we adjust to what is going on and take so much about our life for granted. It isn’t till those moments or people are gone that we realize how much you enjoyed that time in your life.Sometimes when those things slip away, you look back and see how much you loved it.
From my experience, you never get over losing something you love. Every. But you have to let yourself feel hurt even if it is painful. I am scared of what comes next but I don’t let that fear keep me in place. Sure I pause. I question myself. I try to keep moving forward. By embracing the uncertainty, I let it lead me places. It challenges my heart and my mind and paves the way for a richer life.
Molly asked me today if I was excited for Colombia. I am. But I was writing this blog as I responded to her. I told her that I was but I just want to enjoy my time here with the people here for now. It is important that we enjoy the now. You never get a chance for this moment again.
When you feel lost, such as I do right now, you can take a deep breath and if need be, start over. Find your core (I am sure I get that from the workout videos I’ve been watching lately). When you reach inside your heart and open it to others, you will find exactly where you are supposed to be. You don’t have to carry the weight of the world around alone. That’s what friends and family are for. People want to help and you have to let them. Even heroes need a hero. I have to tell myself this constantly and I am learning.
Learning who I am all over again is hard. Sometimes I feel alone, sometimes I don’t understand. It takes courage to find new ways to discover strength. With commitment and determination you will become everything you should be. Any moment can be the beginning of a part of your journey. You should be thankful in the struggles because that is when you find the most you have to offer.
My friend Joel posted this to Facebook today:
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.” – Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
In being single today I know that someday I will love again. I have a lot of work to do before that happens. I want to love more than anyone knows what to do with. I want people to wonder why I give so much love and don’t ask for all that love in return. I understand that there is nothing more important than giving the most love you can every day. Leaving nothing unsaid. Never thinking it is too late. It is never too late to love hard and to be the person you want to be.
Beautiful in my opinion has nothing to do with looks. It’s how you are as a person and how you make others feel about themselves.~ Unknown