Life in Chaos
May02

Life in Chaos

Some would say I am a Type A personality: organized, structured, on top of things. Yet somehow I live in the complete opposite in the untamed, wild, and unknown. What I will refer to as ‘chaos’. I returned to my temporary home Monday after being gone 5 weeks. Only to compose an abstract for a panel I am a part of for my academics. I also had to organize and plan missing parts for my upcoming trip. I had to unpack my life...

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Finished the Camino!!
Apr25

Finished the Camino!!

Day 29: Hit the 100km (60 miles) to go mark today!!! I don’t want it to end. First thing this morning I saw John. I was starting to think he was a fake and didn’t exist. He is in my Camino Facebook group and started the day before me and we were in the same area. I finally found him. I taught him my recently slowed down way of stopping in every village for a drink or food, talking to anyone that would listen, and being in...

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Week 4 on the Camino
Apr25

Week 4 on the Camino

Day 22: I walked like mad today. Anger is a catalyst for change. At least for me and it has been that way my entire life. Probably why I am prone to it. If I am going to walk 2 more weeks, I need to enjoy my time and change my mindset. Sure my body hurts and my feet pretty much hate me. I don’t have anything wrong that keeps me from walking. So that is what I did today. Mad at the world, sick of playing victim so I walked with...

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Week 3 on the Camino
Apr16

Week 3 on the Camino

Day 15: The weather today was great so we knew we needed to take advantage of it and cover some distance. We stopped by an outdoor bar that Eric told us about because he stopped the day before. The bar owner was friendly and gave us watermelon which was delish. The walk was uneventful but I did start a new book called Rejection Proof. I thought it was appropriate learning the recent disappointment of getting the full time job. Very...

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6 Years, Grief After Suicide
Apr13

6 Years, Grief After Suicide

Today I celebrate life. It is a choice I make every year on April 13th. This is the first time since Sean’s suicide that the 13th has fallen on a Friday, like it did in 2012 when he took his life. I also write this blog to reflect on my journey. After it happened, I wanted to run and hide. I did in a sense when I lived in my jeep for months. I couldn’t shake the shame and guilt. I also felt ashamed that Sean had given me a...

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